Truth and Longing

Writer’s block: DEMOLISHED!

Well, mostly.

If you’re just tuning in now, you might have missed my newest blogger challenge! Yes, I was having a hard time putting words to (metaphorical) paper and I’ve noticed that the longer you put writing to one side, the harder it is to start up again.  Hence the challenge to just post something, already! 

Feeling similarly stoppered up? Give it a try!

Raw Truth 600( The Truth.)

I hope you’ve heard by now that our beloved Sea Hole is closing. Like me, you might have wondered why a star brand at Collabor88 was missing, only to sigh, nod sadly, and sulk over the news for days. Whether you made it to the mainstore right away or not, whether you bought half the store in one fell swoop (like me) or resolved to get a few things, only to find you absolutely NEEDED the entire store afterwards (also like me), it is my sincere hope that you have done everything in your power to send this incredible designer out with a bang (and all of your L$). Drinkenstein Sorbet, you will be missed!

Rawish Truth 600

(The WHOLE Truth.)

Second Life is always changing. This is most likely the only thing we can say for certain about the place we choose to make our home. Generally, it’s a good thing; it’s what keeps our world dynamic. It’s the reason we’re always searching for new clothes and shoes, hair and accessories. It’s the only logical reason to explain why we own sixteen different houses, all tucked neatly into our inventories, and more furniture than any one person needs. If you’re a blogger or a photographer, you’ve been exuberantly gathering poses for weeks, months, and even years. If you’re a blogger or a photographer, no doubt you’ve heard that aDORKable poses is closing too.

*Sadface*

I can only describe what I’m feeling now as a sense of longing. For what, exactly, I’m not sure. All I can say is that SL will be a poorer place for the lack of these two creative spirits and truly, I wish them both well in their future endeavours.

More truth 2 600

(And nothing BUT the Truth. So help me Gos.)

We SHOULD end this post on a positive note, though, and in the spirit of this I would like to remind all of you about Gos‘ incredible new(ish) Ursula wedges. Look up, waaaay u-, HEY!, eyes on the shoes! Down, down .. there!

Okay, they aren’t cheap, but who cares?! I fully intend to demonstrate in the coming posts how they can be worn with absolutely everything, from casual summer sets, to glamourous evening wear, to yes, even clubwear. I don’t tend to go in for entire collections but, gosh, I would rather own ONE pair of gorgeously versatile shoes I’ll wear constantly than fifteen pair that will sit in my inventory, forgotten and gathering dust. Admit it, you agree with me.

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Ardent Eyes – Nymph
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
Miamai_Protagoniste Basic (Eyelashes only in first picture)
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

TRUTH HAIR Selma – LightBlondes01 (Check out the NEW mainstore!)

The Sea Hole – Annis Top, Champagne
The Sea Hole – Smocked Skirt – Sea Glass
The Sea Hole – Catalina Lingerie – Foam
[Gos] Ursula Wedge – Classic Collection – Ivory

Color.Me.H.O.F [ContinentalWallet[Pearl] (March Arcade)
EarthStones Lora Earrings – Moonstone Gold
{mon tissu} Take Flight Necklace ~ Robin’s Egg
p.c Braided Finish Gloves

All Poses: aDORKable

~ Shown Here and on Flickr ~

Amazing Prefab
Scarlet Creative For Gorgeous

Gazebo
floorplan. garden gazebo ~ Available at Collabor88 (May)

Grass
Zigana [ Lilies .white ]

Flamingos
/artilleri/ Yo, flamingo!

Potted Plants
{what next} Cornwall Daisies Planters
floorplan. boho ivy planter / mint

Furniture
LAQ Decor

Lighting
The Loft – Leighton Chandelier & Sconces

Rugs
The Loft – Laundry Rug
Dreamscapes Art Gallery ~ Shabby Rug Floral *Sky*

Cake!
-tb- Tea Time – Cake (from The Arcade ~ March)

Holy Cow I Forgot the Title!

Hey all!

Just a quick post tonight (this morning?) but I wanted to share this cute little outfit with you before I started falling behind again. The first thing you’re going to notice (probably) is my new mesh friend; I’ve named him Charming and he just loves to stand around while I take pictures all day long. Cute, right?

So I’m wearing a couple of items from round 43 of the Designer’s Circle, Beautycode earrings and a pair of jeans from even.flow, along with my favourite Gos boots (yes, I have about six pairs of ‘favourite’ Gos boots but these are one of them) along with these sunglasses I can’t stop wearing either. Leather jacket from shine, newish Truth hair, and a great little tee from mon tissu .. what’s not to love?

Portia's Prince 600 (Bigger pic time! )

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Floe ~ NEW!
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

>TRUTH< Nyx w/Roots – seasand

shine by [ZD] - GIRLS MESH LEATHERJACKET back in black
{mon tissu} Joy Tee – Mon Tissu Soiree Gift 4
Lily Jeans teal – even.flow ~ Available at DC 43 until December 22nd
[Gos] Triumph Boots V2 – Fem – Worn -

BC Blue Crystal Loop Earrings ~ Available at DC 43 until December 22nd
[Gos] – Custom Sunglasses v3.2 BUTTERFLY [model]
[PM]Sculpted Nails V2

Pose: !bang
Frog: [Manticore] Normal Froggie ~ These pets are so cool! They follow you around and everything!

Three Months

This post is for me but you can read it if you like.

I was having trouble writing my post tonight when it occurred to me; images are easier than words right now. It wasn’t always the case. Three months ago, I lived in sunshine with grass and trees and butterflies. I wore yellow and white and blue. I was happier and well on my way to realizing the future I’ve always wanted for myself. I felt important, wanted, and worthy.

Logic tells me I am still all of these things but we all know how seldom thoughts and feelings align.

I fought as hard as I could. Said everything I could say, feeling like nothing so much as a fish flopping on the beach, thrashing uselessly in the face of an inevitable future.

This isn’t what I want. I don’t like feeling weak when every day is a struggle to hold my line in the sand. But it is what it is. All I can do is hold onto what I believe and hope. It’s all any of us can do.

Love Is - 600 ( Link to a larger picture. )

Love is a victory.

Every day.

It shows us that the world is not pointless and cruel.

It’s a reason to get up in the morning and get dressed.
A reason to go Outside and face the monsters.
A reason to come home at the end of a long, stupid day.

It’s the candle burning in the window at night.

These are my words, no less true tonight than they were when I wrote them. I’m writing here because this has to come out and the last thing I want is to burden anyone with this mood during a time when things are hard enough. Also, it’s my blog and I can do what I want ( :) ).

Love Is 600 (The wider view. )

Maybe I’m not the only one that’s hurting, though. Maybe you’re reading this now, aching for any number of reasons. Maybe it helps to know you aren’t alone in sadness. There’s no need to pretend you’re okay. There are no smiles that aren’t sweeter for the tears that came before.

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Tundra ~ New
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

-LaViere- Natasha/PaleBlonde (Marketplace Store)

(NO) Openback Lace Tee – Antique Cream ~ New @ Collabor88
{mon tissu} Nora Skinny Jeans / Heels ~ Faded
Ingenue :: Alvery :: Cocoa ~ Available @ The Arcade

*League* Vintage Heart Necklace

Poses: !bang

The Light: Cheeky Pea

Tomorrow Today .. Today!

Hello, my dears!

We’re a little over halfway through the Tomorrow Today event and, by every account, the support has been overwhelming. Dozens of designers, bloggers, and most importantly shoppers have come together to support Matchbook Monday, designer of truly incredible Amorous jewelry.

You can find information on this event on Matchbook Monday’s personal blog. Also, here is the Amorous blog and a link to the marketplace and inworld stores. The event location is right here. <3

( Here’s a link to a big, pretty close-up. :) )

So talking about clothes (because when do I pass up a chance to do that?) I have to say that I am ALL ABOUT this worn leather jacket from Shine; it’s a fantastic shape and the textures (in every colour; I just love the brown) are absolutely beautiful. I thought about wearing it with a simple white tee and some jeans but really, isn’t this so much more fun? *

The jewelry is Amorous, of course, picking up the bronze hues in the coat and awesome AngelRED pants as well as the black stripes in this adorable little tee from fri.day. I can’t say enough about the Exile natural fusion fades either so .. should I even try? Are you still with me?

….

:D

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Silver
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

::Exile:: Wild Horses:Bleach

shine by [ZD] – GIRLS MESH LEATHERJACKET wornout brown ~ Available @ Tomorrow Today! ~
fri. – Ballet.Tee (White.Stripe)
Emery – Gloves #Black ( Yep! Still wearing the heck out of these. )
AngelRED – Vintage Pants TGA [Cafe'] ~ Available @ Tomorrow Today! ~
{mon tissu} Provence Riding Boots ~ Gray

: Amorous : Granny’s Necklace**
: Amorous : Cathartik (Earrings)
: Amorous : Cathartik (Necklace)

Pose: Diesel Works

* In addition to being fun, this is also a great example of why it helps to have a combination of system AND mesh clothing in your inventory. Wearing the jacket in a different size is possible, but I really like the slim silhouette I got with wearing (beautiful) system gear underneath.

** I’ve heard that ten times as many people have purchased Amorous’ ‘Not Granny’s Necklace’ (the mean one!) as the one I’m wearing in this picture. Why not get this, for yourself or a friend, and send a positive message to the people that matter to you?

My very first conversation with Ms. Monday largely consisted of us watching a Rick Mercer special together on youtube. Here’s one of the highlights:

Thinking of you, honey. <3

Falling

I’m usually pretty happy. Whether through conscious effort or genuine gladness, this is the mood I choose to have and the face I choose to show the world. Always a kind word for someone, often with a quip or a compliment (or both, hah!), it’s been my experience that life is generally easier if you face it with a smile. Some days it’s as easy as breathing. Others, not so much.

Still, I try.

This post has been brewing a while, though, and is the culmination of a few things, really. Weeks of grief on top of months of stress and sadness; my anxieties and the neverending fight to BE the person I want to be. The seasonal change (and don’t pretend it doesn’t affect you too – we’re all human), juggling funds, and failure in more than a few areas. Depression. Blah. We’ve all been here in varying degrees and we deal with it in a variety of ways.

( Click here for the full shot. <3 )

Generally, I spend as much time as I can with friends and family, trusting that time with people who care about me (and vice versa) will pick me up. I listen to music and dance; the club I visited tonight uses a windlight called ‘predawnmoon’ and yes, this also encouraged me that now is in fact the time to post.

I was already wearing an item from My Attic‘s new ‘Falling Into You’ cycle, the gorgeous Essences Nile dress and if you’ll glance below, you can see Exile‘s beautiful new hair ‘All for Love’ and one of the ‘Falling’ poses from aDORKable. This post practically made itself, I tell you.

( Yeeeah, it’s been a long night. )

The song I’m linking at the end of my post is the last piece of this sad, slightly blue-ish puzzle. Music is therapy. So is writing. And shopping.  And maybe drinking .. just a little (“…hic!”).

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON ‘Sunrise’ Eyes – Light Sand
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce
-Belleza- Eyeliner 4

“LoQ Hair” Gingerbread – Pale Golden
“LoQ Hairs” Hairbase – Pale Golden

Essences – Nile Dress (C) ~ NEW at My Attic!
[Gos] Hunter Ankle Boot – Taupe (yes, I really do wear these all the time)

{mon tissu} Oui Necklace – Silver
P.C; Reclining Feline Earrings
[ZD] Silver Bangles right – GROUP GIFT
[PM]Sculpted Nails V2

~

As above with two exceptions:

::Exile:: All for Love:Stefani ~ NEW at My Attic!

[Cynful] Deliciosa – Black

~

Poses: !bang, aDORKable (NEW at My Attic)
Props: [ARIA], Banjo Bailey, The Loft, KK

Coming Soon to a Cinema Near You!

Hiiiii everyone!

You may not be able to see me inside the GINORMOUS cinema but if you look verrrrry closely there’s a little yellow and blue person standing by the counter. Squint .. squint .. see me? HI!

You’re probably already aware that the Hottie Cooterati Experience event begins (OMG) LATER ON TODAY but if you haven’t bought your tickets yet, I’m going to tempt you with a couple of fun things I’ve found so far and probably rave way too much about an event which is very close to my heart.

Who doesn’t love going to the movies?

Now zoom out, just a little. :) )

Okay, so first of all .. this event is HUGE and it’s all set inside a giant movie theatre because, helloooo, that’s the theme! As you can see below, there are a bunch of theatres to visit and in each one of those, smaller areas furnished by some of our favourite SL designers!

Cinema will be an elaborately themed sim-wide event centered around one of our favorite past times… movies!

Starting October 13th, Cinema will bring you into a massive and beautiful, intricately designed multiplex cinema featuring 8 individually themed theaters. You’ll be immersed in the movie going experience, and in true Hottie Cooterati style, we will have some fun surprises awaiting you.

As always, our events are more than just about a shopping spree, we want to give you an experience, something to have fun with, and something you will remember.

Don’t worry though, the stores won’t fail you as a shopping event as well. They will be pushed to their creative limits to bring you inspired and themed items from the romance, action/adventure, scifi, horror, fantasy/musical, film noir… and…. XXX genres. That’s right, we just couldn’t leave out a touch of bow chicka bow wow.

( Flickr page transfer – energize! )

I’m not about to head into the ‘XXX’ area unescorted so for now .. it’s SciFi time! “Why Portia,” you ask, “is that a Star Trek commander top?” The answer is YES (thank you Eclectic Apparel) and you can get one too – at Cinema! Need a phaser? How about some 3D glasses? There are hundreds of items, all film starlet-ready and waiting for you. Don’t forget to visit the HCE concession stand either, where everything is calorie-free, fat-free, and also free-free!

Now, just sneak over with me to the Action/Adventure area and check out something super neat. That’s right, my dears – Gos came to Cinema and I helped!

( HEHEHEHEEEEEEE! )

So yes. Cinema begins today! Enjoy and pleasepleasePLEASE tell me all about -your- adventures super soon. <3

~ Command Yellow ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Kaleido Eyes – Forest
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

fri. – Tatum – Happy Blond

e! SciFi Sweater (Yellow) ~ NEW at Cinema!
[Cynful] – Eve Britches – Light Blue
[Gos] Hunter Ankle Boot – Black

{mon tissu} Favorite Readers ~ Black
e! Flight Wings Badge ~ NEW at Cinema!
Fennux Artic Soda (wear me!) ~ NEW at Cinema! (freeeeebie)
Pilot Popcorn Lrg (wear me!) ~ NEW at Cinema! (freeeeebie)

Poses: aDORKable Poses

~ RAMBIMBO ~

LAQ ~ Jennie2 [Peach]
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
IKON Horizon Eyes v2 – Light Blue
:: YaYo :: – Game Day – Face Tattoo
Zasta Korobase ~ Dirt_and_blood

>TRUTH< Lilia – mirage

OW Slave girl
[Gos] Equestrian Boot in Leopard ~ NEW at Cinema!

Thugs Style Head Bandana
M60 GPMG

Pose: oOo (custom)

Portia’s Closet ~ Shiny!

Hey everyone! Long time no see. :)

Well, it hasn’t been -that- long, I suppose, but since I’ve been trying to photograph new outfits for the last week or so, it feels like forever. I’ve learned, however, that you can’t force yourself to do anything pretty if the pretty doesn’t want to come out. That’s deep, right?

(Flickr pic, whee!)

Speaking of pretty, though, a friend of mine turned me on to a great store last week! Have any of you been to Shine before? The tagline is ‘Urban Boho Style With a Glow’ and gosh, I think I picked up one of everything on my first trip (there’s even a 99L$ wall, AAHHH!).  Am I glowy yet? No? Well, I feel positively Shiny! The clothes are mostly mesh, gorgeous, and nothing here is going to break your bank .. unless you buy one (or more!) of everything your first trip out. Seriously. Go peek. <3

Has anyone else been waiting on Gos with bated breath? Am I WAY late telling you about the new(ish) Equestrian and Hunter boots?! Can you SEE how gorgeous they are?!! Sexy, sleek, and perfect for the colder months ahead, they’re available in fantastic colours and, like everything else at Gos, they fit great right out of the bag. Demos at the mainstore, ladies. ;)

(My closet is getting prettier all the time!)

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Kaleido Eyes – Ancient
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey

[LeLutka]-DAISY hair – Marilyn

shine by [ZD] MESH Loose Dress knitted white
p.c; Dark Tights – Nature (2010 Group Gift)
[Gos] Equestrian Boot – Tan ~ NEW!
{mon tissu} Seneca Threaded Leather Belt ~ Worn

*League* Wanderer -Golden Oak- Set
Shakeup! Vintage Ring [20] ~ Available at The Arcade!

Pose: Bounce This

~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON ‘Sunrise’ Eyes – Light Caribbean Blue
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme

[LeLutka]-APHRODITE hair – Marilyn

[ZD] MESH OFFSHOULDER DRESS bohemian
{Happy} Snuggly Knit Tights (Canary)
[Gos] Hunter Ankle Boot – Chocolate ~ NEW!

Emery – Gloves #Black
ROLE OPTIC SG-60 Princess
[bellballs] Disc Earrings- Golden

Pose: Olive Juice