Truth and Longing

Writer’s block: DEMOLISHED!

Well, mostly.

If you’re just tuning in now, you might have missed my newest blogger challenge! Yes, I was having a hard time putting words to (metaphorical) paper and I’ve noticed that the longer you put writing to one side, the harder it is to start up again.  Hence the challenge to just post something, already! 

Feeling similarly stoppered up? Give it a try!

Raw Truth 600( The Truth.)

I hope you’ve heard by now that our beloved Sea Hole is closing. Like me, you might have wondered why a star brand at Collabor88 was missing, only to sigh, nod sadly, and sulk over the news for days. Whether you made it to the mainstore right away or not, whether you bought half the store in one fell swoop (like me) or resolved to get a few things, only to find you absolutely NEEDED the entire store afterwards (also like me), it is my sincere hope that you have done everything in your power to send this incredible designer out with a bang (and all of your L$). Drinkenstein Sorbet, you will be missed!

Rawish Truth 600

(The WHOLE Truth.)

Second Life is always changing. This is most likely the only thing we can say for certain about the place we choose to make our home. Generally, it’s a good thing; it’s what keeps our world dynamic. It’s the reason we’re always searching for new clothes and shoes, hair and accessories. It’s the only logical reason to explain why we own sixteen different houses, all tucked neatly into our inventories, and more furniture than any one person needs. If you’re a blogger or a photographer, you’ve been exuberantly gathering poses for weeks, months, and even years. If you’re a blogger or a photographer, no doubt you’ve heard that aDORKable poses is closing too.

*Sadface*

I can only describe what I’m feeling now as a sense of longing. For what, exactly, I’m not sure. All I can say is that SL will be a poorer place for the lack of these two creative spirits and truly, I wish them both well in their future endeavours.

More truth 2 600

(And nothing BUT the Truth. So help me Gos.)

We SHOULD end this post on a positive note, though, and in the spirit of this I would like to remind all of you about Gos‘ incredible new(ish) Ursula wedges. Look up, waaaay u-, HEY!, eyes on the shoes! Down, down .. there!

Okay, they aren’t cheap, but who cares?! I fully intend to demonstrate in the coming posts how they can be worn with absolutely everything, from casual summer sets, to glamourous evening wear, to yes, even clubwear. I don’t tend to go in for entire collections but, gosh, I would rather own ONE pair of gorgeously versatile shoes I’ll wear constantly than fifteen pair that will sit in my inventory, forgotten and gathering dust. Admit it, you agree with me.

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Ardent Eyes – Nymph
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
Miamai_Protagoniste Basic (Eyelashes only in first picture)
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

TRUTH HAIR Selma – LightBlondes01 (Check out the NEW mainstore!)

The Sea Hole – Annis Top, Champagne
The Sea Hole – Smocked Skirt – Sea Glass
The Sea Hole – Catalina Lingerie – Foam
[Gos] Ursula Wedge – Classic Collection – Ivory

Color.Me.H.O.F [ContinentalWallet[Pearl] (March Arcade)
EarthStones Lora Earrings – Moonstone Gold
{mon tissu} Take Flight Necklace ~ Robin’s Egg
p.c Braided Finish Gloves

All Poses: aDORKable

~ Shown Here and on Flickr ~

Amazing Prefab
Scarlet Creative For Gorgeous

Gazebo
floorplan. garden gazebo ~ Available at Collabor88 (May)

Grass
Zigana [ Lilies .white ]

Flamingos
/artilleri/ Yo, flamingo!

Potted Plants
{what next} Cornwall Daisies Planters
floorplan. boho ivy planter / mint

Furniture
LAQ Decor

Lighting
The Loft – Leighton Chandelier & Sconces

Rugs
The Loft – Laundry Rug
Dreamscapes Art Gallery ~ Shabby Rug Floral *Sky*

Cake!
-tb- Tea Time – Cake (from The Arcade ~ March)

100 Posts and One Year Later

Even though I’ve missed ‘Something New’s first birthday (the original post was December 31st – what the heck was I thinking?!), I’m going to take a bit of license and write my 100th post as something of a retrospective.

It’s pretty incredible how many things can change in a year. Some of them are easy to see; while I’m still using the same skin, my shape has changed to reflect a softer, more womanly personality. I’ve switched to using lighter shades of blonde hair. The Rozena ‘kiss kiss’ lip tattoo is one of my staples now (the only time I’m without it is when I’m wearing big bold lipstick instead.) I have found amazing new stores, covered events, taken up blogger challenges and issued one of my own. I wrote a quiz that received more page views in 24 hours than I usually get in a week.

100 C 600 (Okay, so maybe it looks a little like a tv weight loss commercial. HA! )

Harder to notice are the ways I’ve changed inside. If you’ve followed my blog, you may have read that I battle emotional and mental illness (and I  am ALWAYS open about this). You’ve probably inferred that I have loved and lost. I have picked up the pieces many times this year and needed to soldier on. It’s been harder than I would have imagined but I’ve made it through. I’m stronger now.

My first post ever (link is here) said the following:

So yes, this is me. (Arguably) Doing what I do best. No, it isn’t anything to do with photography.

At all.

I do love looking pretty, though, and doing it in a way that suits me. I love spending time with my family and friends looking great and being silly. I love making a space interesting and inviting and planning for the future.

I hope to cover all these things in my blog and I’d dearly love to share my journey with you this year. Buckle up, kiddos, it’s going to be good times!

Honestly, it’s been mostly good times.

My first post was a little frivolous but through the months I’ve come to realize quite a lot about myself. I believe that a positive outlook is the only way to achieve real happiness.

I share things here to help you smile and feel as though you’re a little less alone. This is why every post is a little bit different, why every outfit I put together has some sort of contextual reason to be in this blog. This isn’t a catalogue of ‘looks’ to flip through in order to find the newest trends in SL fashion – there are plenty of those already.

This is me connecting with you, sharing an outlook that isn’t always pretty but, gosh, what is? The important thing is that we try.

So here’s to the beginning of a new year: it won’t be perfect; it may not always be fun, but I promise I’ll be right here the entire time, doing my best to connect, to be open, and to help you find your reason to smile.

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~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Pond
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

::Exile:: Sway My Way:Stefani

Maitreya Silk Neck-Tie Blouse S * Pure
JANE – wide leg pant.zooey.truffle
[Gos] Hunter Ankle Boot – Hazel -

Donna Flora ~ MARIA Set 1&2
[PM]Sculpted Nails V2

Pose: Diesel Works

There’s only one possible song to share here. Measure in love, honey.

“Olive Shine!”

Do you know the thing I love (olive) most about shine?

Sure, I’ve covered the brand before; Cecilia and I are friends; the clothes are fantastic and fun to wear but the more I think about it, I’m realizing that so many of my favourite outfits of this year have at least one piece of shine in them.  What I’m noticing now (and yes, I know I’ve been wearing these clothes for months) is how well these pieces work with my existing wardrobe but they do it in such a way that everything feels new.

Olive You L 600 ( Standing in front of shine’s NEW mainstore! )

This outfit, for example, came together when I decided to showcase shine‘s new slim mesh jacket; since it’s so close-fitting I wanted to work with system pants over mesh and since it’s on the dressy side (hello, there’s a brooch attached to it!) it needed to have some sort of flair as well.

This is where I remind myself that I have one of the best hobbies in Second Life. :)

So we add cropped high-waist pants from my LeLutka folder (circa 2010 and STILL current), a Whippet & Buck boatneck top (ditto for both), the tights that came with my Maitreya Allure shoes (also from 2010, wow), and the Gos ‘Posh Booties’ I picked up more than a year ago. To this, I HAD to add Exile‘s new ‘Raspberry Beret’ hair, some of Cae‘s ‘Knotted’ jewelry (another amazing new designer – if you haven’t checked her out yet, definitely get on that) and the very last Sea Hole scarf I needed to collect from The Arcade. That’s right ladies and gents, I have a full set now! WOO!

Olive You C 600 (Yeah, and I’m loving these eternity eyes from IKON. )

So what have we learned today, then?

I think it’s safe to say that just because something’s been in your inventory for a while, it can still be a vital part of your wardrobe. Go ahead and unbox your gear from a couple of years ago; you might be surprised to love what you find!

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Patina
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 04 Audrey
cheLLe – (eyeliner) Eyeliner Basics (Top)
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

::Exile:: Raspberry Beret:Stefani

shine by [ZD] SLIM MESH JACKET with BROOCH olive
[W&B] Cole Boatneck Top ALABASTER
[LeLutka]-MICHELLE pants/black
Maitreya Allure Socks – Neutral01
[Gos] Posh Bootie – Obsidian

Cae :: Knotted :: Set
The Sea Hole – (MESH) Parvita Scarf – Hillsbaine ~ Available @ The Arcade
[PM]Sculpted Nails V2

Poses: [LAP], aDORKable
Photos taken at the new shine & sharp by [ZD] mainstore! Go check it out!

 

 

Portia Pexington: Origins and Evolution

Whatever our reasons for joining Second Life, whatever path lead us here, everyone has a story that begins in another time and a very different place.

My story began online, way back in 2004 (holy wow!), in a place called Paragon City and, more specifically, in a game called City of Heroes. I played a mutant heroine named Ms Permafrost, an ice/storm controller (if that means anything to you). She was (is?) a defensive character and it was always my pleasure to keep opponents on ice with crowd control and damage mitigation, while tossing the occasional heal to allies as needed. Is my nerd hat showing?

Permafrost 600 ( Standing on a rooftop .. where else would I take my hero pics? )

Anyway. Most heroes have an alter ego and Ms P was no exception. Enter Portia Peterson (alliterative names are SO comic book), corporate heiress, do-gooder, and all-around fancy person who made heavy use of the wardrobe changing shop ICON and was on a first name basis with Serge, the NPC tailor. ;) I’m sure you can see where this is going now.

Since nothing lasts forever, my time in City of Heroes was limited to a year or two and while I kept in touch with a few friends from my old server (Virtue – I’m a roleplayer too) the character fell into disuse. Until one of those friends convinced me to join Second Life to pick up our heroic storylines in a new place. That would be here.

Frost 600 ( This shot is very similar to the first formal pic I ever took in SL but, gosh, it’s so much prettier. )

I’ve stopped role playing since then; good friends have come and gone and while I’ve lost the urge to seek new adventures as Ms Permafrost (hah), I’ve found her alter ego much more to my liking. In time, she became .. well .. me. :)

What prompted this post, you ask? Simple. IKON released a new pack of Eternal Eyes this weekend and one, named Frost, brought back so many memories I had to share them here. Sometimes that’s all it takes. <3

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~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Frost
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

::Exile:: Need You Now: Cloud

Felicia Helendale ~ Ms Permafrost Outfit (custom)
-Ema’s Secret- Belz dress Pant white
BAX Prestige Boots Base White Leather

~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE*
IKON Eternal Eyes – Frost
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme
.Pekka. Fresh Look Eyeshadows w/ eyeliner – 1
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce

>TRUTH< Jade w/Roots – seasand

~Sassy!~ Whitney gown – sky ~ PoE Hunt GIFT!

Noodles – Celestual Necklace & Ring Silver/Sapphire ~ NEW @ Collabor88
-LMK- Long leather gloves

Poses: !bang, AAA

From Dark to Light

Today is a day of firsts for me. In my earlier post, I shared the first tattoo I’ve worn here (that you’ve seen ;) ) and now, well, have a look!

I’m kind of psyched to be sharing these outfits, as well as these new pictures, with you; I’ve been working harder than ever on this blog, challenging myself to try different things, to accessorize more, and generally add more interest to everything I do. Maybe I’ve never worn a corset before (and that’s saying something as a three-year SL resident) but after some careful consideration as I put these outfits together I’ve come to realize .. I really like them!

And even better? Every outfit piece I’m using in this post (aside from the goooorgeous .:NV . corsets, foil eye makeup from League, and a pair of gacha earrings from The Arcade) has been in my inventory for weeks, months, or in a few cases, years! Maybe you won’t be able to duplicate these outfits exactly (who’d want to do that, anyway?), but the concept of reinventing yourself with what you have is especially helpful this time of year.

Dark to Light - D 600 ( I’m loving this picture so much! Have a peek at the full shot! )

So today’s outfits began, not with clothing or hair, eyes or shoes or jewelry, but with a pair of mesh bird cages from Diesel Works. The Nightingale’s Sorrow ( 15 poses) and Nightingale’s Glee ( 16 poses) pose props are so flipping neat! The poses are wonderful, adjustable, and so different between the two props that I had to contrast them in one thematic post. This post.

Dark to Light L 600 (I’m absolutely in love with these mesh birdcages! AAHHHH!!! )

I’m handling this post a little differently today. Rather than going through each outfit, piece by piece, I’d like you to pay special attention to the style cards below where I’ll list the items I’ve selected, the date I acquired them, and the notes I’m putting beside a few of these pieces. You don’t have to buy new things all the time. Use what you’ve got to try something new. Love your inventory. <3

~ Portia ~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE* (March 25th, 2011)
IKON Eternal Eyes – Sapphire (November 8th, 2012)
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 01 Femme (September 1st, 2012)
Miamai_LesMakeups_Feathered 05 (August 32rd, 2010)
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce (June 2nd, 2012) **

Vanity Hair:Smoking Room-Minuit (September 11th, 2012)
Vanity hair base Minuit (September 11th, 2012)

.:NV:.Classic B&W Mesh Corset (December 5th, 2012)
*COCO*_ShirredTubeDress(Black) (January 3rd, 2010) *
[ Cynful ] Stockings – Black (April 20th, 2010)
[Gos] Equestrian Boot – Black – (October 5th, 2012)

LaGyo_Lila earring Black (December 1st, 2012) ~ Available NOW @ The Arcade!
:: PM :: Jules Gown in Orange Gloves (August 7th, 2012) *, ***
-AZUL- GroupGift1012#1 Feather shawl (December 30th, 2010) *

~

Fairy Skin -Avie- /*natural *REDGRAVE* (March 25th, 2011)
IKON Eternal Eyes – Champagne (November 20th, 2012)
Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Glitter 01 (October 31st, 2012)
*League* GoldLeaf Eye Style2 & Forehead (Tattoo) (December 5th, 2012)
ROZENA/ Kiss Kiss ~ dolce (June 2nd, 2012) **

!Ohmai : Chloe [Creme] (July 16th, 2012)
!Ohmai : Hair Base [Creme] (July 16th, 2012)

.:NV:. Corsetry – ENVY – Full Set (December 4th, 2012)
[Gos] Pimp Your Pumps V3 – Point Platform (July 10th, 2012)

P.C; Regal Pearl Set (May 28th, 2010) (Marketplace link for P.C; jewelry)
:: PM :: Ayame in Gold Gloves FFL 2011 (March 12th, 2011) ***
[PM]Sculpted Nails V2 (May 9th, 2011)

Props: Diesel Works ~ Nightingale’s Glee/Nightingale’s Sorrow (December 3rd, 2012)

* ~ GROUP GIFT
** ~ Sometimes it only takes one thing to bring your avatar to a new level. This is my one thing; find yours and never take it off!
*** ~ About Gloves: It’s no secret that I love gloves and wear them as often as possible but it’s so hard to find great gloves on their own! What I do is rely on my inventory. When I need gloves, I type ‘gloves’ into my search bar and just try likely things on until I see something that works. Many gowns and some full outfits come with gloves; I bet you’ll be surprised by what you find. :)

Windows

Dear Grandma,

I wish I knew what to say to you, how to act when we’re together. We’ve only just begun to get to know one another again and I know we’re more alike than anyone else in our crazy, eccentric family. Understanding this, I also know that you don’t want to talk about your illness or make things any harder on the rest of us than they have to be. You have been strong for us all our lives, though, and I wish you’d let us inside, just a little, to be strong for you now.

It isn’t your fault that I fell apart when we heard about the cancer, it really isn’t, and you shouldn’t have to carry us the way you do. Not all the time. Please let me in, Grandma; we’ll paint together and cook – I’ll transcribe everything you want to say. We’ll write your story together, beginning through end, before it’s your time to leave.

We don’t use the word ‘love’ as often as we should (ie. never) but I hope you know that every hug, every laugh we share, is my way of telling you how much I  care and value who you are and what you’ve done for us. Every time I kick you out of the kitchen is my way of saying “you’ve done so much for us, let me help” even if it’s just to pull a heavy roasting pan from the oven or drain those darned boiled vegetables you insist on making every single week.

You don’t have to carry all of this on your own.

Lots of love, always and forever,

Granddaughter No. 1

It’s hard to know what to write on these things – at my best I’m cheerful and enthusiastic and (I hope) entertaining to read. As per my ‘Love All of Me’ post, though, I think it’s important to share the difficult times as well as the days when you’re at the top of your game and ready to take on the world. Nobody is happy all the time. Everyone has something inside of them that wounds the sweet, vulnerable person in their heart.

I’ve had a rotten day – it didn’t begin that way (AT ALL) but the news that my grandmother’s cancer has come back, has spread and grown this year, is difficult for me to manage alone. I’m not hiding, exactly, but there’s no one around to carry this with me either.

Today has also been a bit of a revelation. I understood, vaguely, why some people are driven to have child avatars in Second Life. In some cases it’s with the specific directive to relive a lost childhood but I think a larger part of it is just to find someone caring and open to pick them up and cuddle them close whenever they want. It’s difficult to enter a relationship from a position of vulnerability and give that power to an authority figure (parents, in this case). It’s difficult to entrust that secret part of yourself to anyone, much less a stranger, and hope that you’re making the right decision.

Once I’d had time to digest the news this evening and my plans with friends fell through, I realized that there was nothing I wanted to do but sit with my kitties and wait for boxes. One of my pairs (Eva and Beau, woo!) dropped a teacup kitten for me and I went “hey .. I’m going to open you.” Martin is the cat on my head in these pics. I’m snuggling Beau. My two other teacups (Aura and Darry) actually came over and started pawing at my feet. I swear, kitties know.

So I’m little for the night, I think, and there’s something really theraputic at being totally un-hot for a while.

Full-on grownup pics tomorrow, I swear! I’m going to link my marketplace and my in-world shops. We’re taking a tour of the Fantasy Faire with Idina and I’ll have my WoC post tomorrow afternoon. You’ll see parts of the venture my Sis-in-Law Pink has been working on annnnnnd .. a couple of other surprises my Wifey and I are cooking up.

Thank you for staying with me as long as you have. I hope you have an excellent week, everyone.

~ Portia